• Good Men

    CW: discussion of possible sexual assault  In the midst of the Cornell 7 case coming to light – thanks to the bravery of Jane Doe, who is suing the university and the rapists – I have seen a lot of talk on social media about the fact that not a single man in the group…

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  • Cherished

    I’m sitting here in the dark. It’s 3:32 am. I have to be up for work in a few hours. Hell, my dog is going to get me up to feed him in a couple of hours. But I can’t sleep.  I listen to audios at night to go to sleep. Most of the time,…

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  • Kiss Me

    It’s been a little while since I’ve been kissed. It’s been longer since I’ve been kissed well.  My first kiss was at summer camp when I was 12. A boy named Mark told me he liked me and kissed me on the lips at the mid-week dance. I was thrilled and enthralled by Mark, and…

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  • Who Am I?

    A little while ago, I wrote an impassioned post about making smutty content as long as I wanted to, no matter how old I get. I’ll do it as long as it serves me, I said boldly.  Welp.  I love to write, but lately the motivation to make things has been lacking. I’m going through…

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  • Angry

    I’m so fucking angry.  It has taken some time for me to get to this place and now that it’s happening, I don’t like it. It feels like it’s not going to stop. It feels like a wave of fury that is going to knock me off my feet and roil me around in its…

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  • Father Figure

    This is the first year of my adult life when I don’t find myself uncomfortable, standing in front of the Father’s Day cards, trying to find one that feels authentic.  Dad, you taught me everything I needed to know… Nope. Dad opted out of teaching me about money, for example, because he said I didn’t…

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  • Safe

    CW: sexual violence There’s a clip going around on social media of two male characters talking about sex. It’s from the hit series Off Campus, and features one varsity hockey player asking another how to make sure a woman comes during a sexual encounter.  “There’s a tool at your disposal,” the more experienced character says.…

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  • Happy 2 years to PL

    Two years ago today, I posted a link to an audio and a story. It is the story of meeting Anonyfun in his hotel room after he slips you the key in the hotel bar. It goes just as you’d think it would – sweet, spicy and satisfying. The stories and audios I’ve made over…

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  • Your Red Rubber Ball

    The world will wear you down.  It will teach you that you’re not smart enough, not pretty enough, not the right skin colour, not the right gender or sexuality, not good enough at your job. It will teach you that you should do your laundry differently, grow grass in your front yard, wear the right…

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  • The Walmart Cure

    Caution: This is a Vulnerable Post If you’ve read enough of my blog you’ll figure out that I am single after a long relationship. Twenty-eight years long, as a matter of fact. We lived together for most of my adult life.  Living on my own has been a wonderful experience in some ways. I am…

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