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Should
If there is a word I would take out of our collective vocabulary, it would be should. Should is a wish-fulfillment fantasy. He should have treated me better. (Absolutely, and yet he didn’t.) We shouldn’t have to do this. (Nope, and yet we do.) I shouldn’t have to tell you I don’t like that. (Maybe,…
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Thanks
Remember when gratitude journals were all the rage? If you just think of 3 things you’re grateful for every day, you’ll notice the change in your life. I think the idea was to train yourself to see the positives (I wrote about this in Glimmers). I tried this practice for a while, but no amount…
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Glimmers
The dread got me, guys. It did. It permeated everything and coloured the way I saw my every day. And no wonder; I think so many things about our world are designed to spark rage and fear and despair. But then, there are glimmers. A lot of people have written about glimmers, but I’ll explain…
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Pretty Lynne and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day
As Pretty Lynne, I usually write about things when they are going well, or when I’ve got it all figured out. Today is a little bit different. Most days, I feel great about being a single woman. I am smart and capable and can figure out how to do things I haven’t had to do…
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For Sale
Anonymous recently asked on a messaging site to meet me in real life. The individual offered me $450 and when I said they had misread the situation, offered more. I was clear about saying no. In the end, I decided to delete the account and stop engaging. I am privileged in that I am a…
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Blocked
I had a confusing thing happen recently and I wanted to write about it. An individual responded to a story of mine on Instagram with a note that they clicked on the Reddit link in my profile and were “not sorry. Amazing work.” We had a very pleasant and superficial exchange about my writing, and…
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“Dreaming of You” in Podcast Form
Recently, VA Benji2049 voiced the male character in my audio “Dreaming of You.” He asked if he could feature the audio on his podcast, Benji’s Erotica and ASMR, and I was so pleased to say yes. I really enjoy listening to Benji’s podcast. He talks a little bit about his writing process, the topic or…
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Vanilla
Lately I’ve been describing myself as a “vanilla” creator, and I can feel the apology in the description. “You might find my work a bit boring,” I’m implying, “but that’s what I do.” I’d like to take that back. I have been around the erotic audio and Lit community for a while now. In that…
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Older
“You’re so pretty,” my friend said to me. It was one of those nights you have with friends where everyone drinks a lot and the conversation turns to how much you all love each other. “You should have seen her 10 years ago,” another friend said. I laughed at him, but I am a slow…
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Armour
CW: diet culture talk I think of it like armour. It’s heavy, and cumbersome, but I wear it to protect me. When I can finally take it off, I’m tired. I recently spent time with an old friend. I love her. She’s been so wonderful to me during a hard time. She encourages me. She…