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  • Death, Like a Door

    CW: death My dad died today.  If it seems weird to you that I’d be writing a blog post, well, it is, a little. But writing has always been the way I process things, so I’m doing that now.  My dad lived a long life and the last few years were not great for him.

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  • Do It Scared

    I’ve been sitting in the dark for the last half an hour or so, frozen. I have a bunch of things to do, some of which are work and some of which are fun, but I can’t move.  Tomorrow I am going to do a very big thing. It doesn’t really matter what it is.

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  • Say My Name

    I rarely get called [real name]. I don’t know why, but it has always been the case.  Even my parents don’t call me by my name. My mother has been calling me “chicken,” for as long as I can remember. Other people close to me call me a variety of nicknames. It may be because

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  • From Far Away

    When I was 18, I fell in love with an older man. He didn’t know I felt that way. If anything, he might have been aware of me being a little giggly around him. I was an exchange student and he was a young teacher (yes, it’s the whole cliche package). We worked together on

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