life

  • New Year, Old Me

    The temptation to remake myself every new year is strong. I love the idea of fresh starts. New notebooks, a fresh stack of paper, a new pen, a clean slate. Leave who you are in the old year and begin again. Be whoever you wish you could be. Fix whatever is wrong with you.  But…

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  • Death, Like a Door

    CW: death My dad died today.  If it seems weird to you that I’d be writing a blog post, well, it is, a little. But writing has always been the way I process things, so I’m doing that now.  My dad lived a long life and the last few years were not great for him.…

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  • Tend Your Garden

    There are days when my garden is sunny and green. The flowers in the corner are bright pink; I planted them there the first time I had something published and people called me a writer. Some sunflowers in the side yard by the fence are a compliment someone paid me about my sunny personality. The…

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  • Do It Scared

    I’ve been sitting in the dark for the last half an hour or so, frozen. I have a bunch of things to do, some of which are work and some of which are fun, but I can’t move.  Tomorrow I am going to do a very big thing. It doesn’t really matter what it is.…

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  • Thanks

    Remember when gratitude journals were all the rage? If you just think of 3 things you’re grateful for every day, you’ll notice the change in your life. I think the idea was to train yourself to see the positives (I wrote about this in Glimmers).  I tried this practice for a while, but no amount…

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  • Glimmers

    The dread got me, guys. It did. It permeated everything and coloured the way I saw my every day. And no wonder; I think so many things about our world are designed to spark rage and fear and despair.  But then, there are glimmers. A lot of people have written about glimmers, but I’ll explain…

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  • Older

    “You’re so pretty,” my friend said to me. It was one of those nights you have with friends where everyone drinks a lot and the conversation turns to how much you all love each other.  “You should have seen her 10 years ago,” another friend said. I laughed at him, but I am a slow…

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  • Armour

    CW: diet culture talk  I think of it like armour. It’s heavy, and cumbersome, but I wear it to protect me. When I can finally take it off, I’m tired.  I recently spent time with an old friend. I love her. She’s been so wonderful to me during a hard time. She encourages me. She…

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  • Singing Chickens

    It’s my birthday week. Yes, I’m a Leo. Big surprise!  Many years ago, I hated to have people acknowledge my birthday. I was worried about the attention. I both craved it and feared that it wouldn’t feel like enough. I think I’ve learned that I was worried no one would remember or care about my…

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  • So Far Away

    I’ve recently returned from a trip to Europe, the first vacation I’ve taken alone in many years. I noticed some things on this trip. Some of these observations may be obvious to you, but some you may find helpful.  Happy travels, you badass.

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