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The Messy Middle
She sits down with her coffee in the morning and makes a list. Weed garden, do dishes, get groceries, get your shit together, the list says. The list represents all of the things she will do when she is fully recovered. When she tells you it has been a hard couple of years, she is…
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Let Everything Happen
It’s a major tenet of Buddhism, as I understand it, that suffering is caused by resistance. Accept what is happening to and around you, and move in strength from there. So often your brain tells you “No, it can’t be true that X is happening,” when in fact, X is very much happening. X is…
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The Author Is Shocked!
I’m a spicy creator and I’m used to talking about and thinking about sex. But it wasn’t always that way. As the child of Boomer parents, I grew up knowing what sex was, but having very few conversations with my parents about it. My dad was an early adopter, so had to own a Laserdisk…
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The Thousand Things
Remember Tumblr? It was the first social media for many of us. I got to see the pretty pictures and the poetry, but luckily skipped the drama. I couldn’t tell you who wrote it or what the rest of the poem said, but this line from a Tumblr post stays with me even all these…
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From Far Away
When I was 18, I fell in love with an older man. He didn’t know I felt that way. If anything, he might have been aware of me being a little giggly around him. I was an exchange student and he was a young teacher (yes, it’s the whole cliche package). We worked together on…
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Keeping Track
I am a good girl. That got your attention, didn’t it? What I mean is that I always did what I was told – until I didn’t – and I tried my best to do whatever I was doing really, really well. A friend recently pointed out that my perfectionism is very evident (and here…
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I’m on a Podcast!
I was approached by a podcaster after he learned about me from a mutual friend. He and I do not know each other – it’s one of those 6 degrees of separation things. Bob’s podcast is cool. He talks to people who do things he’s never heard of and tries to step outside of his…
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This is a Metaphor
Recently I read a powerful piece of writing, and even though I didn’t know what the writer was referring to specifically, I felt it immediately. I felt the fear and frustration and shame and relief. I found myself wishing I could command a metaphor in the same way. Over the years, I’ve lost my sense…
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Write Everything
A tiny bit of PL lore: I had a bit of success as a writer when I was younger, but I didn’t have the ability to withstand criticism and I felt too fragile to put myself out into the world. (More on this in the future.) I also had some funny beliefs about how art…
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The Voice
I grew up thinking my voice was annoying. If you’re Gen X, like me, you probably learned at least one of the following lessons: No? Just me? Maybe so. Your experience may vary. (Honestly, I hope it does.) There was always something about my voice to which my father objected. It was too loud, too…